hello!
im back for awhile..
kk.. had my last paper on friday..
got home, bathed and went out with Amelia, Louisa and AhPang...
walked and walked till 10...
then, headed off to Singgah Selalu for mamak...
got home at 2...
sat.. slept till 11am.. got up.. watched Pirates!
send sara for violin lesson...
and then, came home and SLEPT again.. haha
then got up and went to church..
had dance performance just now.. (yes im blogging while im still sweating)
gave Paul a surprise birthday today! =)
now just chilling for awhile.. and later going to CoffeeTrap for drinks~
haha.. yeah...
now for my schedule for the next week...
sunday - out for P&W practice at 2-4pm
- night, going for friend's birthday party
monday and tuesday - booked by sisi..
wednesday - booked by tang
thursday - booked by vanessa
friday, saturday, sunday - booked by youth~ got camp!
so yeah.. that's my holiday!
sigh~~~~ hahaha

i was there the whole day, u smiled, u talked to me. but when it was night, that girl came. she was standing there. what's that suppose to mean? u smilingly said bye to me and u walked off with that girl! what the hell??? im blur.

who's in the house?
JC
tell me, who's in the house?
JC~~

* von out *

something funny =)

See anyone familiar??
dancing to the tunes of JC (Jesus Christ) In The House!
=)
see von anywhere near?
haha feedbacks people~~

Tagging Time!

as you guys can see... i got TAGGED.. haha..
im gonna do it anyway... coz im B-O-R-E-D!

Layor 1 - On the Outside
Name: Yvonne Ong SiuMynn
Birthdate: 4th December 1988
Current Status: Complicating~
Eye Colour: brownish black
Hair Colour: blackish brown!

Layor 2 - On the Inside
My Heritage: erm.. abit of nonya-baba chinese?
My Fears: Fear la..
My Weaknesses: hmm.. talking too much? complain too much? play too much?
My Perfect Pizza: just give me a Hawaiian Chicken or Chicken Peperoni! haha

Layor 3 - Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
My First Thoughts Waking Up: what day is it?
My Bedtime: usually pass 12am.. haha
My Most Missed Memory: High School~~

Layor 4 - My Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Mcd~! wooohoo!!!
Single or Group Dates: Single
Addidas or Nike: Nike!
Tea or Nestea: tea!!
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocs!!!
Cappucino or Coffee: Cappucino would be better~

Layor 5 - Do You...
Smoke: nope~
Curse: erm.. who doesnt??
Take a Shower: hell yeah!
Have A Crush: hmm.. maybe?
Go To School: not school la... college yes...
Want To Get Married: maybe? maybe not? i wana be a nun!!
Believe In Yourself: YEAH~
Think You're A Health Freak: nope! im far from that! haha

Layor 6 - In the Past
Gone to the Mall: DUH~
Been on Stage: always!
Eaten Sushi: yeah...
Dyed Your Hair: i highlighted it... haha

Layor 7 - Have You Ever....
Played a Stripping Game: NO~
Changed Who You Were to Fit In: NO~

Layor 8 - Age You're Hoping to...
Get Married: maybe 26, 27??

Layor 9 - In a Guy
Best Eye Colour: natural looks nice~
Best Hair Colour: natural again...
Short or Long Hair: short would be preferred...

Layor 10 - What Were You Doing..
A Minute ago: chatting with my jiuhu friend
An Hour ago: just woke up from my 3hour nap! haha
Four and a Half Hours ago: Sleeping~~
A Month ago: studying... colleging? haha
A Year ago: griefing? haha

Layor 11 - Finish the Sentences
I love: God!
I feel: weird...
I hate: nothing.. hate is such a strong word..
I hide: from my darker self
I miss: those up in heaven and far away from me...
I need: more time!

Layor 12 - Tag 4 People
Ra
Kim
Jey
Norbel
{sorry peeps} hehe

went to look for you today. u called out for me! got me feeling darn happy! u kept asking me where are we going. love it when you call my name. love it when you look at me. love it when u asked me to go clubbing with u on the 1st. u make me darn happy today. and for u, i will study hard today! yes~! thanks~

i love it when you call
love it when you call

- ) von out ( -

Exams

oh yeah!
it's time for some updates.. since SOMEONE
hinted me to do so..
i dont know what to say... haha
Beverage was tough~ super tough..
then it was Food Service Management, less tough but still tough ok?
and tomorrow, there's Communication.. which i have no idea what to study..
because.. i've been communicating all my life.. be it verbal or non-verbal...
yeah.. see.. what exams are doing to me? making me go cranky, weird, wacky, crazy and all!
i absolutely HATElove exams!
after tomorrow, there'll be Economics! omg~ God save all of us~!
yes! that's all we need.. God saving us would be great!
we need easier papers for exams!
we need more time for studies!
we need less assignments and group work!
we need stupid teachers to set stupid papers!
we need more wisdom to pass!
we need less strict teachers to mark our papers!
and finally, we need a better schooling environment!
okok.. enough of me ranting now..
got to go get some giraffes for house decorations!
so not gonna study for communication~!
hehe.. call me bad! woohoo~
okok.. need to release stress now!
off i go to animal farm!!!!! giraffes here i come~!
yay!~~~

because i liked the view
when there was me and you~

! von out !

The camera clicks.

hello~ im back with some pictures.. hehe
only for awhile.. taking a break from my stupid interesting books~
here's a pic taken on wednesday.. during lunch...
a big FAT cat lying gracefully on the chair in the coffeeshop.
and the best thing was, it posed for me to take the picture! haha
i wonder if its plain fat or pregnant~ but hard to tell though...

big kitty~

nothing happened much on thurs and fri...
and now, on to saturday... von went to church at 4.30pm..
practised for awhile and went for a drink with steph..
and this is what was in front of the both of us...
2 flies having sex mating.
hmm.. what an interesting day today...
after that, went for mass...

hmmm....

after mass... mom, maid, uncle wong, aunty mag, pearl, Max and i...
we went to Festive Street Mall for dinner... hehe
MAX is so damn cute!! i really really LOVE him deepdeep!
kept talking non-stop to us... kept running about..
so darn cute i tell you~
here's a picture of him that i took just now... hehe

aint he just too cute to be true?

ok so now, time for me to hit my books again...
wish me luck again peeps...
im at page 188 out of 458 pages~~
just really GREAT
haha chaoz~

cause i am not afraid to keep on living
i am not afraid to walk this world alone
honey if you stay i'll be forgiving
nothing you could say could stop me going home

# von out #

Sweet Thoughts

something this sweet, caring, thoughtful someone gave me..
cheered me up instantly.. as this sweet friend of mine was in guilt!
and i was in my emomo mood.. cause of weird things happening recently..
everything is coming back weirdly again... i guess, this is the cycle of my life..
no really good things but all the wrong things going off and coming back again..
before i forget, happy 2yr anniversary mama... hope you're still up there thinking of us... keeping us safe... say hie to uncle black and raine for me k? miss ya...
colours.. i love colours! purple! blue! orange! green! yellow! black!!!
hahahaha... this is not gonna be an emomo post!
lalala~~yay!!!!!
*von sings*
*tell me, what you thinking about when you got me waiting patiently
usually i don't have to wait for nobody
but there's something about you that's got me feeling weak
and im trying to find the words to speak*

swiss roll...

to this dear dear friend of mine,
thanks for the sweet thoughts! really cheered me up alot!
no words to describe how i feel.
just very honoured and happy!
once again, thanks~~ =)

oh... hie paul! im talking to you online now boy!
hahahaha miss ya..... be a good boy ok??

i got my eyes on you
so tell me what you gonna do
i can picture you in my room
until in the morning~

! ~ von out ~ !

nothing

von's emoing. why?
cause.
im sorry for being born this way.
im sorry to make your lives difficult.
im sorry for the wrongs that i've done.
im sorry for the rights that i've made wrong.
im sorry for making you angry.
im sorry for being stupid.
im sorry for not being smart enough.
im sorry for being lazy.
im sorry for not being diligent.
im sorry for not being intelligent.
the worst of all is, im sorry that im even born.
not that i want to.
not that anybody wanted me to.
but
cause
God wanted me to.
to stay here on earth and suffer.
there are many ways of suffering.
but my way of suffering is way way way wrong.
there might be people suffering way worst than me.
but sometimes, i just wanna give up and stop all my sufferings.
cause it really hurts me deep. just sometimes.
and sometimes, your hearts just doesn't have the space for you to hurt.
and when that happens, you fall.
fall into a deep hole.
fall into somewhere you've never been.
just plain falling from the edge.
it all leads to me being born.
not that it's a bad thing or something.
it's just also not that a good thing either.
von's stressed i guess. she's going bonkers, weird, crazy....!
only God can help now.
im just plainly, sincerely sorry for everything.
sigh~
dont even know why im so emo.
you MIGHT have a heart problem.
i teared. but do you know that? no.
i won't be able to stand another one dying at home.
i've lost 3.. and it shall remain 3 for now.
but it's not for me to decide eh?
so, God, help me now. that's all i ask of you.

how do i live without you
i want to know
how do i breathe without you
if you ever go
how do i ever, ever survive
how do i
how do i
how do i live

' von out '

interesting happenings

von's updating! yay!! haha but this post is all about pics....
so be warned!! haha im not gonna talk much.. the pics are gonna do the talking...
today, von went to the indoor stadium to watch sara and beverley compete...
so yeah... here are some pics...

ra at home after competition

mum, ra

melvin n me.. some random pic..

gonna start with thursday now.... sisi came down from sg to visit... brought her out! hehehe

in kim gary

the ever-so-cute friend of mine! haha she was saying 'the food damn nice'

in danga bay, beach club! i love this pic coz of the lightings there!!

friday....
von went to school as usual, then rushed back to rest.. coz didnt really sleep well on thursday night.. haha and then, got up, went out with ruby, maddy, haqiem, lincoln, and a few more..

ruby and von

von, maddy, ruby

we were in danga bay yet again.. haha

haqiem.. we were in some place in uda.. haha

saturday.... got up and went for replacement class... sien~ haha
then rushed back again~! slept.. and went to church... after church, we had our dinner... melvin, clara, ra and i had dinner in sds... yeah..

von, ra

melvin trying his hardest not to smile?

clara: hey, look at my watch!! melvin: -_-''' right....

and then, after dinner... balloons blowing... haha

look at all of our balloons!!!

sunday... von woke up at 8am! today... it's our church feast day!!!
we had games, fun, food and laughters!!! hahaha von spotted afew cute lil boys in cute outfits!!

spiderkid with his drums! boy, he can really play well!!!

another boyboy dressed as a priest?? haha future-priest he will be

and then, we proceeded to the indoor stadium... go sara!!! go venoms!
saw so many juniors la... haha hie people!!!!! ehem..

kim, von

ra , von

von, lohloh~

loh: errrrrrr???

finally one nice pic! hehe

oh yeah.. the Venoms~ ra's team's name...
they got 2nd... and their seniors got 1st.. will figure out a way to post the video here though! hahaha it's damn nice! i like!!! weeeeeeee!! congratulations venoms!!!!! u guys were good... and to the senior team, u guys rocked too!!! and both teams are going for the finals in KL next sunday... i dont know whether i can make it or not! monday my finals starting already...!! sigh~~~ hahaha and now, back to my books! tata peeps... might not be updating as often... but do drop by yeah? haha

we were out for mamak,i asked u for help to b my bf. u instantly agreed. what does that mean?
i miss u.. but do u miss me? that is the question.

i hate you but i love you
i cant stop thinking about you
im stuck on you~

^ ! von out ! ^

when do you ever grow out of feeling pain?
when do you exactly stop feeling pain?
when did you ever realise what you're feeling is pain?
yes, pain.
everyone feels it.

slow songs playing.
von's emo-ing.

why?
no idea. because it's stressful for her?
maybe... maybe not.

von's stressed. but she doesnt know the reason.
might be because of the people around her.
the feeling's overwhelming. so strong that she herself cant take it anymore.
oh.. she doesnt even know the reason.

im gonna break down real soon. it's waiting to be erupted.
once erupted, there's no turning back. it's patiently waiting.
sometimes, being alone is the best thing to do.
and yet sometimes, you just gotta need that one or two person beside you, encouraging you, supporting you.

life is sad. like is unfair. life is just like that.
you dont always get what you want. but in the end,
you gotta live with it. why? coz THIS IS LIFE
it's full of ups and downs.
it pains to feel hurt. it hurts to feel pain.
but sometimes, it also draws down to this..
everyone need someone, somehow, somewhere.
cause loneliness is the worst feeling anyone could ever have.
you can have so many friends. but when you really need someone,
no one's ever there. just sometimes.
so, von jia you! you can do it! yeah~
gambateh!!

i worked with you today.u seem interested. u seemed happy when im around. i asked u why were u smiling. u said coz i was there. i really wonder if it's true. coz i really do miss u. so tell me what u feel would u? if not, i'll be dying here. just for an answer. sigh~

dying you destroyed our death
rising you restored our life
lord jesus, come in glory~

> von out <

Happenings lately

so many things are like happening lately..
hehehe.. we had Wine Tasting today!!!!
woohoooo~~ highnesss~
and yeah, pictures again.. i have so many to show!

me in demo bar, awaiting our wine being poured... smiling happily for jey's phone!

this is just random la... mainly for those really important peeps in my life...

i love u kim!~

some of the people from YouR06 team~

von and clara~ the bestest friend anyone could ever have~ =)

peeps from school....

naresh the sexy ass and von...

norbel the twin and von~~

von and huihui the cutiepie~

and now, presenting my wine glass~~ white wine.. forgot the name..

red wine, forgot the name too!!

and now, specially for the hot, cute baby in class..
who is so dear to me.. miss Yao Si Si...!!!

us before drinking anything... hehe

camwhoring.. sigh~ but hey, we like it...!

and now, after wine tasting... alil high there~~~

she's just too cute to be true~ dont u guys agree?? every picture she takes, there's always the 'peace' sign there... hahaha true??

sisi, im using pink for u!
we are so the same! haha i dont know what i would be if you were not beside me encouraging me.. so i really thank god for you! and i really hope you will stay happy always when you're with me k?? that last part is dedicated to you only..! happy not??
hehe dont act shy ok?? love ya babe!~

u were offed today, i was talking to a fren, and there u were, appearing in front of me. i called for u, u turned and smiled.
oh gosh, how i really missed u. but did u ever know? no....

some people wait a lifetime
for a moment like this~

~ ^ von out ^ ~

Random

hihi...
jey, as promised! here you are..
more pictures!
it's just really random la....
why are poeple coming telling me that i grew thinner??
did i?? really did i??
feedbacks people.. feedbacks... i need them~ hahaha

von in sds cake shop, patiently waiting for her food to come..
acting cute? haha that's what a few people said...
but von never acts cute... coz she's forever cute! hahahaha

once again, using steph's phone to take picture... haha *shy*

and so, now, some of the people whom im close to in school..

julian the bully, brandon the uncle

elina, always the one with the big wide smile~ with a lil of tyna at the back in black.. haha

and now, von just got back not long ago from school...
had service today, and i was the Assistant Head-Waiter!!!
ehem! i think we all did a great job! *claps* *cheers*
yay!!! today was ok for von... was emo after school...
and now, still emoing! hahaha yeah..

so now, here are some pictures took last night when von
went for the Cornerstone Camp held in Majodi Centre, Plentong..
for the forms 1, 2 and 3....
rara's in the organising team.. so weird without her at home..
gosh~ how i miss her now.. how i miss u irritating me...
and my 3 malaccan friends are down to help out for the camp...

gilbert, ronald, bernard, clara, von!
those in blue are the malaccans...

ronald

gilbert and bernard

bernard and kimmy!

and for the last picture...
this girl is none other than
VANESSA LEE
whom i watched her grown since young...
and now, she's like 15years old already?
gosh~ how fast is this world moving?
she is just one cute, adorable little fella!
hahaha everytime i see her, my problems just fades away~~

von and vanessa... note the 'v'... hahaha
never knew how much ive missed u since i last met u.. do u still like me? coz i have a feeling that it's like that..
tell me if u like me.. coz i might like u back too! haha

im going home
to a place where i belong
where the air has always
been enough for me

* von out *