Deceits

Ever wonder why people hurt over
Lies, being Deceived?


that's because someone genuinely, really cares for the other person.
and when a lie takes place, and when the someone finds out,
it hurts a great deal.


sometimes people think to themselves as to why they
have to care for the other person so much?
when all the other person does is matching up lie after lie.


well
i guess
this is life


we tell lies
they tell lies
everyone tell lies


just to save themselves out of temporary trouble
but have they thought about what happens after?


if the lie isn't found out
then that person is considered lucky


but what if the person who cares found out?
what can that person do?
continue letting the other one deceive everyone around?


ha. it's comments time!
=)

there is no other way
i get the final say
baby hush hush

¿ ~ von ~ ?

Not Gay

i am
seriously
not
happy
with
my work..



SICkeninggggg!


¿ ~ von ~ ?

Work

work work work
my hours of work seemed like it's never ending..
nine and a half hours job is no joke..
it's too long for me to bear..
but at the end of the day,
be it one hour, or one minute before i knock off,
i am certainly the happiest person on earth!!!
HAHAHAHAHA


just a part of my brain that is doing the thinking..
the other part is dreading the working hours..
HAHAHA
going to work now..
tata!
claraaaaaaaaaaa!
byeeeeee!


¿ ~ von ~ ?

For the last time

Once again,
for the last time in this school..
i'm gonna take my last exam!
HAHAHAHA

wish me luck peeps!
=))


clara and kfk, when you all coming back?!!
ishhhh

it started out as a feeling
and then it turned to hope

¿ ~ von ~ ?

ahhhh

i thought after finishing 2 projects..
there would be no more projects left to do..
but suddenly,
out popped another project..
which we have to hand in by wednesday!
woohooooo!


now i know why i'm going mad in singapore...


¿ ~ von ~ ?

AH!

oh my goodness..
von's like freaking out!


as you guys know,
i am finishing my 2years studies already.
but the course is 3years.
and for the last year,
we have to go out to hotels for attachment!


the economy now is so bad that
most hotels have stopped hiring
and to get a trainee job for 1year is even harder!


this afternoon, one hotel called me
asked me to go down on friday for interview!
FREAKING out!
scared la..
think i can shit bricks in my pants!
HAHAHAHA!
right clara?


i can do it!
confidence!
HAHAHA!
clara, stop laughing at me!
wish me luck my friends!!!!!
cause im like super scared la!
ahhhhhhhhh

hold my hand
tell me it's fine
and that
everything will be alright

¿ ~ von ~ ?

Hola

Hola!
i'm back!!
but i'm in pain....
cramps..
super pain...


sigh...
what a fruitful day today..
will update soon..
no worries..
i'll be fine!


¿ ~ von ~ ?

Arghhh

i am so frustrated right now!
headache since morning... and now is night..
it's like the whole day... painnnnnnn!


there's like a million things to do
and yet,
so little time
or rather,
no time at all!

now, i just have to figure out
what to do for my resume..
it seems like
i haven't got the slightest clue!
AHHHHH

when the going gets tough...


von takes pictures!
hahahahahaha
that is where i sit in class..
second row from the front!
i'm such a good girl....
NOT!
hahahaha

my table... pencilcase, drink, highlighters!!!

i will remember you
will you remember me
don't let your love
pass you by
live not for
the memory

¿ ~ von ~ ?

Yay

so i'm back to update..
nothing to update about la..
i only have 4 subjects in school now..
as this is my last term..
then attachment..
and the 4 subjects are all..
i repeat,
ALL
killer subjects!

let's see..
communication in business
business statistics
principles of management
food production

like what the toot right???
the names of the subjects all damn cheem la!
hahahahaha


stress level rising up already..
awwww.....
CNY come quick!
then we can get together again!
=)
you know who you are...!!!

yesus pokok yang kita cabangkan
tinggal lah di dalam nya

¿ ~ von ~ ?

Blog

what shall i blog about?
i don't know!
nothing's been going on actually
just that..

damn busy with school work!

has sore throat and fever last night..
today's much better..
but still feeling a little out-of-the-world!


hahaha!

i'm bored too!
i think i'm constipated!


on the other hand...
i'm secretly counting!
=)
yay!!

sleigh bells ring
are you listening
in the rain
snow is glistening
a beautiful sight
we're happy tonight
walking in the winter wonderland

¿ ~ von ~ ?

Back

hey guys.
just to update.
i'm back..
to school i mean..

it's damn BORING la...
check out my timetable..

monday : 8.30am - 4pm
tuesday : 8.30am - 4pm
wednesday : 8.30am - 5.30pm
thursday : 12.45pm - 5.30pm
friday : 8.45pm - 4pm


tell me..
am i being ill-treated??
i need to RUN!
hahahahaha

okay.. gonna go now..
my subjects are way worst now!
micro-economics, HISTORY, convention and exhibition, quantitative methods (maths), collge writing, front office management~

only 6 subjects! but all are kinda heavy weightage..
only 1 word for it...
DIE!
hahahaha

i can't make it through without
a way back into love

¿ ~ von ~ ?

Spore

recently, i've been playing Spore!
it's a nice computer game!
hahaha
it keeps me company.....

this is bell's creation.. haha!


for now.
due to certain unforeseen reasons.
i shall not blog.
i repeat,
for now.
there's too many irritating stuff happening around me!
URGH!
go AWAY~
i'll blog when i feel like it.
adios!

so i'll just play my part
pray you'll have a change of heart

¿ ~ von ~ ?

Poopsie

best and good friends are hard to come by..
you might even be considered lucky to have 4 in your entire life..
those who stay long?
are the ones that come for a Reason..

on a different note,
a hug from you would mean everything..
do you feel the same?

and friends are friends forever
if the Lord's the Lord of them
and a friend will not say never
cause the welcome will not end
though it's hard to let you go
in the Father's hands we know
that a lifetime's not too long
to live as friends!

=)

¿ ~ von ~ ?

Cinta

Love is when you see the other half for the first time in a day, and you gently smile to yourself.
Love is when you would not care how many times that person hurts you, you still care about that person without fail.
Love is when that person cries, you cry too, not because of you feeling emotional, but because you cry for the pain that person has.
Love is when no one else matters other than the both of you.
Love is when even if the whole world go against you, that person will stand up and fight with you.
Love is when you are being bullied, that person will be the only one that will protect you.
Love is when there is genuine laughter around this fake world.
Love is when you would go through anything for the other person.
Love is when you would die if you see the other person hurt.
Love is when you take the other half for granted.

Author - Unknown



since young, i'm a weak person.
weak as in crying.
people bully me in primary school, i could only come back home and cry.
nobody would know. nobody would find out.
one thing for sure is that, i can cry very easily.
i cry all the time. i cry at movies.
i cry at funerals. i cry for my friends when they hurt.
i cry when somebody i don't know dies.
i cry when animals die.
i cry when i receive touching emails.
i'm basically saying that i cry at anything and everything.
because that's the only thing that i can do to let things out.
i don't shout or scream, scold or throw things like other people.
i don't take it out on other people.
all i can do is cry.
hello. it's not that i love to cry.
trust me, it's not easy to have such active tear glands.
how i wish i could have those inactive tear glands where it would make me a hardass.
but i'm not, and i can't.
if i could, i wana stop crying at anything and everything.
i don't wana be like this either.
in the end, i can only accept this
because this is how God made me.
i'm different than others.
i'm special. there's no one else like me.
crying is not weak. it's merely releasing stress.
if you love me for me, then accept me for who i am and not what i'm supposed to be.

on my own
pretending he's beside me
all alone
i walk with him till morning
without him
i feel his arms around me
and when i lose my way
i close my eyes
and he has found me

¿ ~ von ~ ?

Hotel Visit

haha.. yes! i'm finally here to update..
fefe baked cookies for the first time in her life..
and made us try some..
hehe
it's all burnt i tell you..
b-u-r-n-t !
hahahahaha
but you certainly can taste the sincerity and love from the cookies!

shatec has announced their new logo..
it's now brown and white..
look at it..

shatec institutes! hahaha

and weisiong got bored in class that he took a picture of me with my phone..

this is chuzzle with colourful specs!!! hahaha


on wednesday.. we went for a hotel visit in Amara Resort, Sentosa..
it's a beautiful place i would say..
took some pictures..
heh

this is the poolside bar!

sibon - the japanese restaurant.. but before that it was a chapel!

suite bedroom~

indoor pool for 1 suite

outdoor pool!

jacuzzi~!

bell with the BIG bathroom!

there are like loads more pictures..
but i need to get them from weisiong..
hahaha so be patient okay!
yep!
and i slept at 8pm on thursday night
till 8am on friday morning!
i guess i'm just too tired of things around me..
hahaha it was cool to sleep that long
cause i never sleep that long before..
unless i'm like super tired la..
hahahaha



kinda feeling a little down these few days
i know what is the reason
but sometimes, i just can't tell anyone
because you would say that i'm silly
and that it's all over now
i have to be strong to move on
and blablabla
but i just can't help feeling this way
i really really miss my jie
and now, i can't even call her anymore
there's no more late night talks
no more comforting words from her anymore
the reason i'm not telling you is because
i don't want you to think that i'm holding on to the past
i'm not
i just really miss her
it might be easy for you to just forget
but not me. i'm not like that
i can forgive but i certainly can't forget
i've always been ignorant to the things that doesn't matter much to me
but to those that matters a lot, i can't forget
and i'm just someone with a very very strong emotional side
no i'm not emo. don't worry.
i just miss her a lot.
hope you understand
=)

when you're gone
the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone
the face i came to know is missing too
when you're gone
all the words i need to hear
to help me get me through the day
and make it okay
i miss you

¿ ~ von ~ ?

hoot hoot

this marks the
10th month of us knowing each other~
hahaha
weeeeeeeeee!!!


pictures gonna be up tomorrow i think..
when i'm supposed to be not so busy!


hahahaha
goodnight my lovely peeps!
sweet dreams..
dreams are sweet!
=)

there's a song that's inside of my soul
it's the one that i tried to write
over and over again

¿ ~ von ~ ?

New term

hey! long time no blog! hahaha

anyway..
i absolutely have nothing to say about the timetable~
let's see why...


Monday : 9.15am - 5.45pm / 6.45pm
Tuesday : 1pm - 6pm
Wednesday : 9am - 2.30pm
Thursday : 8.30am - 4pm
Friday : 11.30am - 6pm



look at the bloody timetable!!!
imagine you're traveling the causeway everyday..
despite that, you have to brave through the jam...
and not forgetting the massive jam caused by Mas Selamat
that's like totally depressing..

and so, 6pm is the worst anyone could get for a class to finish..
damn it~ i totally absolutely HATE jams!
it makes my mood go bad..
so if you see me in a bad mood, know that it's the jam and not you!
hahahahahaha



today we had a lesson called Productivity Studies..
this trainer is damn funny! his name is Frank Pang!
he's so funny.. cause we were supposed to have his class at 4.30 - 6pm..
but the earlier class ended early.. so his class changed to 3.15pm..
and then, they were distributing our timetable.. apparently a changed one..
and Mr Pang supposed to have a class tomorrow with us.. but thanks to the new timetable, he said they (the admin) wasted one class of his...
and i'm gonna quote what he said...
' since you all got no mood to study, i also no mood to teach, let's all go home!'
and then, he walked out of the class... just like that!!!
how cool is he?? haha and instead of ending at 6pm, i ended at 3.45pm!!!
hahahahaha!!!
today's a good day~!

i love you too much
to make you stay
so baby
fly away~

¿ ~ von ~ ?

blog

don't you sometimes think that
the dead might have a better life than the living?
ha.
yeah. i do think that way sometimes.

in life
you will definitely take people for granted.
especially those closest to your heart.
you can scream, shout, dissed, talk to them rudely,
how you want, when you want..

but sometimes, just sometimes..
do you ever think of what the person you're screaming at feels?
yes, they feel hurt.
they feel unwanted.
they feel that they're misused, or worst, mistreated.

and yet, at times,
they just need some reassuarance from the people who shouted at them..
is that wrong?
nah.. i don't think that's wrong..

people makes mistakes everywhere anytime any place
it's because of making them, or keep making them that they will remember..
so that they won't repeat that same mistakes over and over again..
nobody's perfect..

i'm fine okay.. hahaha
just trying to remind me of not being the worst person that i hate..
and that is not being me.
so i'm just gonna be me.
i have short-term memory.
i hate that.
hahahahaha
i love flowers.
i love herbs.
i love my family.
i love my dogs.
i love my friends.
=)

there is something in the way
you look at me
it's as if my heart knows
you're the missing piece

¿ ~ von ~ ?

update

hello~

im back to update~!!

von's got back her transcript..

shall not reveal how much..

but i can only say that my grades..

GPA gone up 0.06marks!!

yay!!

i still pass k!

hahahaha

i got 3.** out of 4...

hahahaha!

im so tired these few days..

nothing much to do..

had 2 test this week..

hahahaha!

woohoo..

k.. shall go now..

take me

mould me

use me

fill me

i give my life to

the potter's hand

¿ ~ von ~ ?

life

funny how sometimes
we used to go for holidays
although my memory is still vague..
i kinda remember that day till now

we went to some place for holiday
i bought 2 packets of orange peel..
and somehow or rather,
i fell asleep on the bed.

suddenly my uncle came in
and ask for some
it's so happened that i was in the half-awake, half-asleep mode
i didnt replied him

and after that, he went around telling people
that im very selfish..
oh yeah.. that did hurt a lot
for a very innocent little girl..
not to mention that it still does hurt now..
just that the little girl before..
kinda got used to that

so, months passed, years passed..
it's still the same
he still thinks that im selfish..
okay maybe i used to be!
but who doesnt?
come on.. nobody's perfect..

and and..
i can remember this very very clearly
during one of those chinese new year time..
he gave me an angpao for like RM20..
when he gave my younger sis RM50..

i told mom bout it..
and what did she say?
go back and ask for more..
what the hell am i suppose to think man..

so yeah..
i just need to find a place to release my
hurt, anger and disappointment..

dont worry.. im not being kidnapped yet..
just that sometimes, shitty things all comes at one go..
and you kinda like get lost
not knowing where to go
what to do
what to feel

hahahaha! im going back to spore now..
i love my friends k!
especially clara! jack! deniece!
=)

i need you boo
gotta see you boo
and the hearts all over the world tonight

¿ ~ von ~ ?