life

funny how sometimes
we used to go for holidays
although my memory is still vague..
i kinda remember that day till now

we went to some place for holiday
i bought 2 packets of orange peel..
and somehow or rather,
i fell asleep on the bed.

suddenly my uncle came in
and ask for some
it's so happened that i was in the half-awake, half-asleep mode
i didnt replied him

and after that, he went around telling people
that im very selfish..
oh yeah.. that did hurt a lot
for a very innocent little girl..
not to mention that it still does hurt now..
just that the little girl before..
kinda got used to that

so, months passed, years passed..
it's still the same
he still thinks that im selfish..
okay maybe i used to be!
but who doesnt?
come on.. nobody's perfect..

and and..
i can remember this very very clearly
during one of those chinese new year time..
he gave me an angpao for like RM20..
when he gave my younger sis RM50..

i told mom bout it..
and what did she say?
go back and ask for more..
what the hell am i suppose to think man..

so yeah..
i just need to find a place to release my
hurt, anger and disappointment..

dont worry.. im not being kidnapped yet..
just that sometimes, shitty things all comes at one go..
and you kinda like get lost
not knowing where to go
what to do
what to feel

hahahaha! im going back to spore now..
i love my friends k!
especially clara! jack! deniece!
=)

i need you boo
gotta see you boo
and the hearts all over the world tonight

¿ ~ von ~ ?