Start Of A New Life

von's gonna start studying already.
where?
there...
in singapore.
Diploma In Hotel Management.
oh god, please help me pull through.

that is exactly in a week's time.
how fast time flies.
another year has gone.
and now, it's time to move on.
von's scared.
who isnt?
a new place, new environment, new friends.
new everything.
but does that change anything?
well, maybe.
so wana leave soon..
leave everything behind.
so that i dont have to come back to this cold icey place.
wana stay there and not come back.
help me someone.
please?
but no one's gonna help.
coz there never was anyone.
rite.






am not angry at you for that.
you're forgiven. truly you are.
it's just that i finally knew where i stand in your heart.
aint that important to you anyway.
so why bother when im not even a small little vein in your body?
aint angry no more.
aint disappointed no more.
just fed up.
tired of the things that i have and have not done.
just plainly tired.
so give me a break.
after all, i did try my best.
i bled for you.
bled for all the times we once shared.
bled for those we didnt.
bled for so many nights.
but am not bleeding no more.
bleeding has a whole new meaning to me now.
never have i been so heartbroken before.
and it really hurt like hell.
but it wont be broken anymore.
will never be.
dont worry.
coz it's icey stone cold now.
hard as a rock.
so strong that nothing could ever break it at all.
so relax. dont have to hurt anymore.
coz i will never be hurt in this way again.
for now i finally know where i truly stand.
and that is >>> no where.
thanks. once again.
but if you ever need anyone to talk to,
i'll be somewhere near.
you just gotta look for me.
keep searching and you'll find me.
and that is if you're sincere enough.

you're not alone, together we stand
i'll be by your side you know i'll take your hand
keep holding on
coz you know we'll make it through
just stay strong
coz you know im here for you

~ von out ~