Friday, March 30, 2007

high time~

lalala~~
it's high time for me!!
von's so high that everyone is getting scared talking to her!
she's scaring everyone around her~~
von's so high~
high
h
i
g
h
~
weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
von just came back from malacca at about 11am...
haha.. super duper tired...
slept from 4pm-7pm...
hehehehehe
yes i know, im a pig...
but i was tired ma.
surely some sleep should be alright right??
hahahaha
that explains the high mood now..
slept too much~
lalala~
von's going out now...
mamak~
tata~
hey hey you you
wana be your girlfriend!
* von out *

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Sunday, March 25, 2007

Happy Birthday Pearl

just here to say a few words...



happy birthday pearl!~



hoped you had fun on this special day of yours!
may you have more and more of fun in the coming years that shines ahead of you! hehe!
take care my dear dear wacky cousin with an almost-2-years-old son~!
never knew i could feel like this
like ive never seen the sky before
want to vanish inside your kiss
everyday i love you more and more
^ ~ von out ~ ^
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Saturday, March 24, 2007

nothing

this post means nothing. so dont even bother reading it.
why is life so unfair?
why is life so weird?
why do some people get what they want and live happily?
and why some people just cant no matter how hard they try?
why do people hurt?
why do some people just love hurting others?
why is there injustice?
why is there pain?
where isn there even joy?
some say there will be sunshine after the rain.
but unfortunately, not mine after all...


rain rain go away, come again another day

i am sad. yes i am.
i am sad and bored and i have absolutely nothing to do now.
im sad coz im gonna leave real soon.
to an unknown place with unfamiliar people.
and oh yes, you are happy for me.
hello? im the one who is supposed to be happy.
but why am i not?
why?
well, maybe i know the problem.
it's like i have the same problem like the girl in Ice Princess.
but at least in the end, everyone understands the problem.
and not to mention that they fixed it too.
sometimes, being alone in this whole wide world is a good thing.
sometimes, being alone aint a good feeling.
sometimes, having many friends doesnt mean that every single one of them will always be there.
sometimes, there never was anybody there.
sometimes, disappearing might be a good idea.
sometimes, just get a knock and you'll forget everything.
that might be a good idea then.
it's tiring sometimes, being the oldest and eldest.
the burden that no one can ever understand.
the burden of being a second and suddenly being the first.
it's not easy. everyone knows.
but sometimes, you just wana let go of everything.
how you longed to be loved for who you are.
and not what you are.
is it that hard to love someone?
you dont ask for much.
but just love you for who you are.
you may not be as smart as others.
not be as cool as others.
but we do have our own feelings.
and when it hurts,
you just wana disappear. for good.
and when you cant, you turn to something bad.
you turn revengeful. you turn rebellious. you even turn into another person.
you can even turn into someone you dont even know could exist.
it hurts. painfully. deep down. where no one has ever gone before.
well, maybe someone. or a few others.
it hurts that you might even wish to stop breathing.
to end it all. but cant.


sunshine~
and in the end, you learn to breathe again.
coz the sun is up once again.
and you'll learn to forget the past.
forget bout the pain you used to have.
forget bout what has been in your heart for a long time.
forget bout the pain that was in your heart since young.
forget that you were the second.
forget that you cant always have what you want.
forget that you cant force someone to love you.
not even the closest people.
not even family.
but hey, you get to forget everything once the sun comes up.
and you'll be back to who you are.
forgetting all the sadness in your heart and mind.
living happily after all. for once.
but
not for long.
so i lay my head back down
and i lift my hands and pray
to be only yours i pray
to be only yours i pray
to be only yours
i know now
you're my only hope
\/ von out /\

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Thursday, March 22, 2007

tioman trip!

hey peeps! yes, im back from Pulau Tioman.
so yea, pics as promised...
i'll start from the 1st day.
got up at like 6am to get ready. went to alex's house at 7am.
waited for the rest to come.but, we tried calling Da Kor for a long time.
his phone was off! we coudnt wake him up. and so, they had to ask me to call Michelle, Er Kor's wife, i called and called, but to no avail. been calling from 8-9.15am when Michelle finally heard my phone call. she picked up, was talking in a very sleepy mode, and i asked her to help us wake Da Kor up. and so, she did. yay!
Da Kor finally called us after like 10mins. and he sped down to Alex's house coz we were rushing for the ferry trip to tioman.
we were speeding all the way to the jeti. and boy, it was scary! the roads were all bumpy. and the worst thing was, Da Kor was driving and he only slept for like 5 hours.
and i was sitting beside him.. i had to keep him awake for the 1 hour++ journey..
and then, we finally reached the jeti at like 11.45am when our ride was supposed to be 11.30am.. but luckily they havent taken off yet. if not, we will have to wait for the other ride at 1.30pm. the journey to tioman was so tiring that all of us slept in the ferry.
and finally, we reached tioman! it was about 2.15pm when we reached. coz it was raining heavily in the middle of the journey.
yeah, we reached, unpacked our bags and went SWIMMING!




von and ah ma, one of the best shufflers ive ever met
after swimming, we took our baths, rested, ate our dinner..
and we played games~!
beating games that only the guys took part in...
where they had to call someone's name, and that someone is supposed to hit the thigh of the person on his right or left...
and so, everyone of them got bruises here and there on both their thighs...
and everyone slept soundly....


that was like the end of the 1st day.
and now, the second day.
we all got up at 8.15am to go for breakfast.
the guide told us to be ready by 10.30am. coz we are gonna visit so many places and we are gonna swim!!! haha yay!
and so, we got ready.
1st stop, Monkey Island which i didnt take any pictures, coz i was in my oh-im-so-giddy-that-i-can-almost-puke-everything-out-in-your-face kind of mood.
anyway, i went snorkling and there were like a thousand and one coral reefs there! and not forgetting there were SO MANY fishy swimming around me!!! i didnt swim for long there, coz i was kinda like panicky ad my legs like couldnt touch the ground and swimming with so many fishy!! hahaha scary-cat u might say, but who cares??
and there we were getting ready to go diving

2nd stop: some place la..
this place, we ate our lunch and continued snorkling! and this time, i was prepared!
swam for like 2 hours with again, fishy, with me!
von smiling weirdly at the jeti
3rd stop, some duty free ulu place.
yep! we were at some ulu place la... boss bought liquor and cigrattes.
now, these fishy were like swimming in a straight line!
after that, we went back to our own place. and guess what?
we SWAM again!!! with all of our diving equipments!
and the time was only 2.30pm.... the sun was scorchingly bright.
but we still swam... and it was really fun!!!! got back to bath at like 5.30pm
gotten ready for barbeque dinner! and then, we gambled a little and went to sleep...

the third day...
woke up at like 9am for breakfast. ate.
and then, packed our bags to come home!
and it rained throughout the wholenight. so it was freakingly cold~!
it was as though we were in genting.
and there we were, cam-whoring while waiting for our boat to come
then, we left tioman for mersing... sat on the speedboat for like 45mins and we reached! went for makan in some place near desaru and teluk ramunia...
and went for some sight-seeing...
and it was time to go home.....
got back from that place at bout 7pm... and we went for swenson's ice-cream in johorjaya!! did not take any pictures there la... but it was definitely Y-U-M-M-Y!!!!
finished our icecream, and we headed for foon yew 1, which is behind my house, to support our fellow friends playing for the volleyball tournament! haha and guess what?? they WON~!
and so, von finally got back home at 10.30pm~~~
unpacked, played, relaxed for awhile and drifted off to lala-land at 1am......
there. finally all out! yay! it was tiring to blog man... im still feeling super tired!
gonna sleep now... gonna club tonight!~
yay!~
i belong to me
i dont belong to you
my heart is my possession
~ von out ~
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Sunday, March 18, 2007

updates!

hello! updates here now! oh ya, forgot to add that,
today is
ST PATRICKS DAY!!!
so HAPPY ST PATRICKS DAY everyone!
if you guys read the Star papers today,
you would know what i mean..
well, von's been like lepaking at home on monday,
working on tuesday,
lepaking here and there on wednesday and thursday,
and working on friday.
that's how interesting my life's been.
was really bored outta my mind for like so many nights.
kept playing some msn games with a few friends of mine.
but this particular game, Sudoku Too, made my blood BOIL!!
it boiled so so so so much!
coz everytime we wanna play tt game, it takes a very slow,
and i repeat, S-L-O-W, time to load!
it will either be fast for me and slow for my friend..
OR
fast for my friend and slow for me!
that's like soooooooo ARGH!!!!!!!!
yeah so ok... that's like my week...
today's been like fine...
woke up at like 11am? but both clara and i slept over at deniece's.
why you say?
coz we went to her place on friday preparing things for Agape Meal for today.
and so, we slept over la..
came home at about 2something?
and i slept! i actually SLEPT!!!
slept till about 5pm!
woke up, gotten ready for church and went for mass.
after mass, went for a drink and came back to prepare our dear dear Agape Meal.
what is it?
it's not the Last Supper but the Lord's Supper.
it could be called the Passover meal too!!
if you guys watched the Prince Of Egypt, you might know..
yea so anyway, if the top of your front door is like painted with lamb's blood,
then, the Lord will not take the first born male in your house.
and take as in take his spirit la.. and so, Pharoah did not believe in that,
he did not paint his door, and his first born male child died.
yeah, so that's bout it. we ate this meal to remind ourselves what bitterness Jesus and the Israelites had gone through in that period of time.
dont even know why im blogging bout this. it's the first time im blogging bout churchie stuff. so please bear with me okay?
so, after church, we waited from 10-11.15 for kelvin's parents to come pick him up!
yea.. we waited and waited for his parents to come!
after that, we headed for Zorro's to MAKAN!!!
makan till 12something... and im like blogging now..
oh ya! von's gonna go holidaying in Pulau Tioman from 19-22 of march!!!
it's like day after tomorrow till thursday!!!
YAY!!!! i'll be going with 12 colleagues and my boss...
we have to like pay only RM200 for the ferry ride and the others, boss will take care of it... why is he paying for us???
coz 19th is his birthday! and we went to Desaru last year to celebrate his birthday...
so now, we plan on going to some pulau... and so here we are, going to tioman!!!!!
we went to Desaru after closing the shop last year. without any extra clothes... and came back in the morning to open shop!
but now, we are going prepared!!!
will update when i come back peeps! and of coz, with PICTURES!!!! yay!
tata for now.... and TIOMAN, HERE I COME!!!!!
wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here
waiting for you
< " von out " >


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Thursday, March 15, 2007

boredness





Your Pride Quotient: 33%

You're a little prideful, but nothing out of the norm.
Like everyone, you enjoy attention. But you're also good at sharing the spotlight!
How Much Pride Do You Have?
hmm.. this is like fine rite??


You Date Like a Woman

According to studies on dating, you date like a woman.
You tend to take romance seriously, and you're not really out for a fling.

A mental and emotional connection always comes first for you.
And rushing the physical stuff is likely to turn you off.

You're highly selective when it comes to dating, and some may say you're too picky.
You know what you want, and when you find it, you're ready to commit.
Do You Date Like a Man or a Woman?
haha.. duh~ im a woman...


Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!


Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.

They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.

It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.

They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.
How Do People See You?
am i that slow??



Your Love Type: INFJ

The Protector

In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship.
For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls.

Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in.
However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself.

Best matches: ENTP and ENFP


You Are 80% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world.
Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.
How Happy Are You?
happyness!!!!


You Are Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream

A classic and an original, no wonder everyone snakes your style!


How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.
How Are You In Love?
i DONT fall in love quickly!!



Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is high.
You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.
And in return, you expect the same from who you love.
Any sign of straying, and you'll end things.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is low.
This doesn't mean you're a doormat, just balanced.
You know a relationship is not about getting your way.
And you love to give your sweetie a lot of freedom.

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is high.
Sure you believe in love, but you know it doesn't come easily.
You scoff at "love at first site" and "soumates."
You rather take the real thing, as unglamorous as it is.

Independence:

Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.
The Five Variable Love Test
this is unfortunately quite true la.... hahaha


Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ESTJ)

Your personality type is serious, fair, independent, and competent.

Only about 9% of all people have your personality, including 7% of all women and 11% of all men
You are Extroverted, Sensing, Thinking, and Judging.
How Rare Is Your Personality?
told you people out there that im weird..


You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need.
You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law.
While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top.
You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!
Would You Be a Cool Parent?
now, this is way cool man~!


Your Ex Is Paranoid

Whether your ex was accusing you of cheating or your friends of being evil...
Your ex definitely saw things that weren't there!
People with paranoid personality disorder bear grudges, are always suspicious, and confide in no one.
Sound at all familiar?
What's Wrong With Your Ex?
this one's abit weird la...


What Your Hands Say About You

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.

Bold and daring, you're not afraid to change your life if you think it needs an overhaul.

Brainy and intelligent, you are intellectual to the point of being incomprehensible.

Your emotions tend to be relaxed and uncomplicated. You don't read too much into things.


You Are 70% Sexy

Your Sex Appeal Is: Extremely High

You're very sexy. You just have that certain something that takes over a room.
You know how to attract, entice, and keep whoever you want. You are truly appealing.
How Much Sex Appeal Do You Have?
my middle name is 'sexy'! haha... rite...


You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional.
You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly.
Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you.
You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature.
Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind
Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?
yes, my intentions are always good... =)


You Are 28% Spoiled

You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head.
You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.
Are You Spoiled?
at least im not as spoiled as i thought i would be...


Your Dominant Thinking Style: Experimenting

You're all about looking at the facts, and you could always use more of them.
You see life as your lab - and you're always trying out new things, people, and ideas.

The master of mix and match, you're always coming up with unique combinations.
You are good at getting a group to reach consensus.
What's Your Thinking Style?
this is sho cool man!!!


You Are 81% Thankful

You're an incredibly thankful person, and everyone around you feels very appreciated.
You inspire people to be more optimistic, forgiving, and grateful.
How Thankful Are You?
i dont deny the fact that im quite thankful. haha


You Are 43% Perfectionist

No one would call you a perfectionist, but you definitely have a side of you that strives to be perfect.
Try to see your mistakes as learning experiences, and don't be so hard on yourself when you screw up!
Are You a Perfectionist?
haha.. me a perfectionist?? think again...


You Are 73% Open

You're a pretty open person - and you don't mind sharing the good, bad, and sometimes ugly.
And while sometimes you do catch yourself blabbing on, you usually exhibit restraint.
You're openness is quite refreshing, and it encourages other people to be open with you!
How Open Are You?
haha. im quite open!!! hahaha

had fun doing suelynn's survey man!
got me out of the oh-im-so-bored-right-now-i-could-kill-myself mood...
haha
thanks dearie!! some are like so not me la.... but still, i had fun doing this~!
you people should like try it out or something!!!!
wo zhi dui ni you gan jue

~ ! von out ! ~

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