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Evanescence - Open Door

im bored.

sad.

for awhile.

trying to

remember each and every detail

u left me.

sigh.

u left us 2yrs ago.

left all of us hanging.

made us twirl and twirl in our own world.

i was confused.

u always appear in sara's dream.

sometimes in mine.

but in our dreams,

u seemed happy.

radiant.

satisfied.

im glad that your ok.

what bout us?

struggling?

no, we're struggling no more.

we've passed that stage of life.

thanks for all the good and bad memories raine.

im still remembering every little detail

of u in my life.

to me,

u will always be my one and only

elder sister.

i love you jie!

i miss you raine!

i really do.

may u rest in peace.

27th September 2004

by the way raine,

this is ur favourite band's new song.

"Call Me When You're Sober"

~ Evanescence ~

Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.
Should I let you fall?
Lose it all?
So maybe you can remember yourself.
Can't keep believing,
We're only deceiving ourselves .
And I'm sick of the lie,
And you're too late.
Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.
Couldn't take the blame.
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded.
You can't play the victim this time,
And you're too late.
Don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
You want me,
Come find me.
Make up your mind.
You never call me when you're sober.
You only want it cause it's over,It's over.
How could I have burned paradise?
How could I - you were never mine.
So don't cry to me.
If you loved me,
You would be here with me.
Don't lie to me,
Just get your things.
I've made up your mind.

show me a garden

that's bursting into life

~ von out ~

the week that was

let me start with friday..

ven came to my house in e morn, then we both proceeded to max's house.

played with max until it was bout 12.30pm and we left for city square.

ven and i went to buy tickets for The Banquet and we went to Sushi King for lunch.

ven ate so much that he still weren't full yet!

and so, the show started... it was quite interesting and nice. not to mention the scenery there!

so, the show ended bout 4.40pm and the both of us were wandering around till bout 5.30pm.

waited for mum but she went to the wrong place to fetch us. haha.

mum fetched us and dropped ven for his tuition.

and then, the both of us went to our 'house' to meet the furniture guy.

mum and him talked alot till it was bout 7 sumtin. and i told dad to go buy dinner.

and i left with dad to go buy dinner. reached home, ra and wenli came back.

we ate, and then we proceeded to Foon Yew 1 for Planet Shakers!!!

thought we were late, but we werent! haha and so we played , jumped, shouted all our lungs out.

oh ya! met so many people there! shirley, sarah j, peiman, sinvon, wanhui, colin and so many more man~!

and when we couldn't stand the thirst, clara, shirley,sarahj,patricia and i went for a drink.

haha that was fun too! by the time we got back, we continued jumping and soon, it ended.

clara sent sara and i back. and then she asked me to go and stay with her for the night.

so i went back home, packed my things and go mamak! after that only we went to her house.

back in her house, we watched this movie called Havana Nights where the song Hips Don't Lie originally came from. the show was SUPERB!!!! haha and after that, both of us konk-ed out to lala-land at bout 4am.

the following day,saturday.

clara and i woke up at bout 11am!! hahaha and then both of us took turns to bathe.

and blablabla... we went out at 12.30 coz we had Praise and Worship session.

and so we sang, dance and do stupid things to irritate kenneth. hahaha.

and while we did that, my stomach started to grumble! it was grumbling for food la...

i hanged on till 3.30pm man! haha then, sara,clara and i went for makan! yumyum!!!

sara went for catechism class at 4.30pm and the both of us comtinued sitting in the shop till it was 5.30pm.

then we went for mass. after mass, we went to the shop again for a drink. clara and i couldn't eat coz we had late lunch. yep. after dinner, we went back for Youth Meeting. talked and yakked alot. and it was time to go home.

then, steve drove clara,sara,pierre and i to Zorro for makan,dinner i suppose.

all of us ate and then we went home. von was so exhausted that the minute she finished cleaning herself up, she konk-ed out!

sunday.

von woke up at bout 11am. did notin much. stayed at home for the whole day.

monday...

von went to max's house early in the morning. played with max....

and in the afternoon, uncle wong, auntie mag, pearl, max and i went to Jusco Tebrau City for a walk.walked and walked and walked, uncle wong bought something for von!and we went home at bout 6.30pm. so i went to max's house as my things were still in their house, feeling a lil hungry. told mum to come get me for dinner and told her that pearl wanted to go to Jusco Permas for a walk. and so, we went out again.... and ate at KFC at 10.30pm! hahaha and then, we left Jusco. again, von went back, feeling tired.

tuesday.

von stayed at home today. well, not exactly. mrs koo and chiewfong came and fetch me.

von sang. and ate and had fun. haha! after that, mrs koo fetched sara and i back home.

and then, von and ra stayed at home for the whole night while mum went dancing and dad went to watch football.

wednesday.

von stayed at home. doing notin.

thursday.

von went driving! SHE BANG-ED a TIANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ra and her did noting that night except that ra was straightening my HAIR!

friday.

von is now in max's house. gonna go out later with mum for grocery shopping. sigh~

haha just saw a clip from celine aka sabai.

http://www.mayyoubeblessedmovie.com

really touched by it! thanks SABAI!! i love my sabai!!!

because of you

i never stray too far from the sidewalk

because of you

i learn to play on the safe side so i won't get hurt

because of you

i found it hard to trust not only me

but everyone around me

because of you

i am afraid

^ ! von out ! ^

wat a day....

im back again..

i seriously dont have anything to write.

anyway, von is going for Planet Shakers for sure.

hope to see familiar faces there though.

remember, it's held at Foon Yew 1, 8pm, 15 sept.

max has recovered from his sick already.

poor boy, he was yelling his head of last week when i saw him.

and now, he's almost back to normal,

except for the part where he still is coughing.

apart from that, he's fine now.. playing with me..

someone actually saw max through the webcam!

and said that he's cute, of course.

just glad that max is fine now.

the greatest thing was,

they said max called

'VON VON'

when he was sick!

hahaha!! he called me...!!!

i think he misses me, that's why!!!!

he said 'I LOVE YOU' before he called my name!!

haha okok ending here.

sa rang hae yo

zhi dui ni shuo

i will love you

and forever more

wo da ying

baby you will see

mei yi ge wo dou

shu yu ni

! von out !

new beginnings

hello my earthly beings.

we mourn the death of Steve Irwin, the Crocodile Hunter.

oh yes, we use to watch his shows.

and now,

he's gone.

may God bless his soul!

btw, Planet Shakers are coming to town!

15th September 2006. SJK(c) Foon Yew 1. 8pm.

von and ra are going! so if your going, we meet you there k?

von touched a fish on sunday night.

a carp to be exact.

there was this particular carp kept coming to von

allowing her to touch it. sara touched that particular fish too!

we both called the fish 'Our Loyal Friend'.

von had a day of fun with max on sunday.

everyday is a new beginning for us.

von shall wait patiently for her new beginning.

von will end with a song Come What May by Nicole Kidman and Ewan Mcgregor.

never knew i could feel like this

like i've never seen the sky before

want to vanish inside your kiss

everyday i love you more and more

listen to my heart

can you hear it sing?

telling me to give you everything

seasons may change

winter to spring

but i love you

until the end of time

come what may

come what may

i will love you until my dying day

suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

suddenly it moves with such perfect grace

suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste

and it all revolves around you

and there's no mountain too high

no river too wide

sing out this song

and i'll be there by your side

storm clouds may gather

and stars may collide

but i love you

i love you

until the end of time

come what may

come what may

i will love you

until my dying day

oh come what may

come what may

i will love you

until my dying day

you love me

come find me

call me when your sober

` ! von out ! `

crossroads

sometimes i wonder

why do people die

why do people even live and then die

why do some people love their lives so much

and yet some just wanna throw their lives away

the big question is

WHY?

i'm starting to wonder whether if there's some sort of answers to those questions

but i know that the answers are different for everyone.

there's no correct answer.

or even, no answer at all.

September is the jiwang month for me.

you do not want to know why.

you don't have to know why.

well, maybe in time to come,

you will know why.

coz' it's the month for remembrance.

a time to remember every little detail.

be it good or bad, happy or sad,

i shall be remembering everything.

everything she has done for me!

everything.

the angels they burn inside for us

are we ever?

are we ever gonna learn to fly

the devils they burn inside for us

are we ever gonna come back down?

come around, im always gonna worry bout

yhe things they could break us

~ von out ~